| where have you been all my life |
[18 May 2007|07:20pm] |
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holy hell. i so forgot about lj. what made me remember is lost. i remembered that lj has a great LOST community. so smart.
so last time i posted was when Victor died. i miss my Vicker =(
the one before that was about friends i didnt want to loose touch with.
lets recap:
-"adam, dont you dare forget me."
-"chea, i love you"
-"whit, of course i wont loose touch with you. haha not a chance in hell."
-"sam and jenna, we will have a good summer"
well funny because the only person i still talk to is Sam.
Adam... well looks like he forgot me. he got to good for the rest of us when Joaquin left i guess, b/c i havent seen much of him since he left....
Chea... she has school and we live so far away so we dont talk very often. Other than that, i think we're good. I still love her.
Jenna...where the hell is Jenna?? are you still down there by central? who knows.
Whits the most surprising one. I obviously havent forgot about her... how can I? but ive lost most respect. when your best friend is willing to leave you in the cold when you need her most... how can you not? i couldnt even get a fucking phone call.
still a little hurt by that...
sucks that things had to happen like that and its hard when you have to find out who your real friends are the hard way. ha! its easy to say we'll be best friends forever when youve got a couple drinks in you.
whatever though. things are great now.
my true friends that stuck by me are awesome and i couldnt ask for more.
im actually glad how things happened because otherwise, i would have taken the real ones for granted.
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[05 Jun 2006|02:24pm] |
he asked me to go with him. he called to tell me that he had to go to iraq in a month and he was wondering if i wanted to hang out and go to burms. i know i shouldnt blame myself but i cant help but wonder what might of happened if i went with him. ive stopped him from leaving before.
we were supposed to hang out today... or sometime this week becuase i probaly would have blown him off again today. i cant help but feel guilty for taking his friendship for granted. he was one of those friends that was always there for you.
i am glad we shared the good times that we did. you were and always will be one of the greatest friends ive ever had.
i love you and i miss you.
RIP mr. vicker.
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| leaving day :( |
[05 May 2006|08:26am] |
today, me whit and adam (and maybe mike) are taking joaquin to the airport. this is giong to be the saddest day and the longest trip back from grand rapids ever.
we didnt expect joaquin to leave until tomorrow. we were going to make tonight a memorable cinco de mayo.
joaquin might be able to come back to America! so thats a good thing. *fingers crossed* so we made a pact that we will visit at least once a year. we will go to spain one year and the next he will come here. thats something to look forward too. and thank God for the internet. we can keep in touch.
..but its not the same. i feel bad that lately, ive kind of taken for granted the fact that i could see him anytime, hang out anytime.. but now what? we can be pen-pals. that really blows.
so we basically know who told on hiim.. and that blows too.
i freaking hate fremont and everyone in it (except for the few, you know who you are)
it sucks that his experience in America had to be the shitty little town of Fremont.
Joaquins flight is at 2. At 2 im going to loose one of my closest friends.
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| a little help please? |
[20 Apr 2006|01:37pm] |
ok so carmen and i were put in charge of research for htis thing yada yada not important.
what i need from you guys is a little help.
if you know of ANYONE who has a special talent.. it doesnt matter what it is: skateboarding, art, dirtbikes,singing, whatever you can think of, PLEASE let us know ASAP!!
it could be you, it could be one of your friends, it could be just someone you heard of!!
any help would be greatly appreciated.
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| moons class |
[29 Mar 2006|12:58pm] |
so this our media productions class... and we werent allowed to leave today but everyone has a camera so we did the math and had our fun inside the classroom.
haha mr. moon!! carmen, hailey and maisie strike again!!
  
so first what we did was joined the wrestling team....
..then we made a porn...
   
 
 
...time for a smoke break...
 
   
 
  
 
 
 
(remember to thank your mom...youre not as ugly as us :P)
 
..and then hailey ate my head. THE END.
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| garenteed |
[14 Oct 2005|11:32pm] |
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the only thing worse than not knowing is thinking that i dont know.
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| friends only |
[06 Oct 2005|02:12pm] |
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| the faint |
[05 Oct 2005|04:55pm] |
good old times listening to the faint dancing in the car with whitney while unexpecting strangers watch us from the sidewalk.
just adding to the list.
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[04 Oct 2005|07:39pm] |
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jimmy talks like yogi the bear.
i was thinking, everybodys had their fling. all but one.
( schedule )
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| tierd of the same old games |
[11 Sep 2005|10:00am] |
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ugh..
this is the part where i would normally lash back in more negativity...
but im not going to this time.
negative + negative does not = positive, it equals negative to the 20984 power so...
let them say what they want to say.
thank you, hailey.
for being forgiving.
thank you, dougan.
for being probably one of the greatest people ever.
thank you, kelli.
just for being you. :P
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| sick of the negativity |
[03 Sep 2005|11:29am] |
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im tierd of it.
im just so thankful that this is my last year here.
i actually do miss boyne city. its so much more... cleaner i guess. much more innocent.
in my last entry, i said that i do not hold things against the ppl that dont like me. not anymore at least. i would think that would let some drama loose.
instead, somehow that caused drama.
or maybe it was bc i mentioned that everyone was getting pregnant lately, but that shouldnt cause much problem bc i did not say any names.
MMYY tires were slashed and yet im still the one being blamed for all the drama. i have no idea how to disconnect myself from this negativity. wish it was easier.
ugh, oh well.
congrats if you got to read the post.
so im driving the black car around for a while. i get new tires monday, but i think im going to still drive the Death Star until winter hits.
jake. you piss me off with your dumbass-ness.
why do you have to be so blind and hopeful.
so much hope and too much hurt.. for both of us.
what was said actually pissed me off more than getting my tires slashed.
i need a boyfriend so i dont have to have friends anymore. seems they always turn around and bite you in the ass. everytime.
becca, rachel, and erin havent yet. i really dont think they will.
i need to just shut up.
i need to get over it.
i shouldnt take it so personally... but how can i not.
im still pissed.
last night, it was so funny. it was extremely embarrassing but still freaking hilarious.
ernest and mike and brett and them stopped over at chucks last night with dirk.
when they left, brett said something to me about someone doing something to my car or whatever so i ran out there and i see all these guys piling into an escort, which happens to look exactly like mine.
i open the door and look around and the inside looks EXACTLY like mine. dirks girl friend is in the drivers seat and i yell "EVERYONE, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY CAR!!!" im surprised dirks gf didnt punch me right there. her face just got like... crazy mad.
it was hilarious. we laughed about it afterward. she is pretty cool.
man it was so funny, but like i said, extremely embarrassing. i feel like a jackass. haha.
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| fremont water |
[30 Aug 2005|10:17pm] |
so yea...
whats with the water in fremont, huh??
lol we have all heard that one...
im sticking with bottled water from now on.
but it only seems to be the skinny ones, so i think im in the clear.
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| twitterpaited. |
[28 Aug 2005|08:19pm] |
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if you have seen bambi, you have an idea what that means. *sighs
gosh. im so busy lately. its crazy. this week is just packed full. i dont even get anytime to run during daylight hours unless im doing it at lunch... which isnt a bad idea.. hmmm
i wont have a chance to go and see any of erik or beccas games (erin and ken of couse too.) and just.. ugh.
-i hate how my aunt has a program every hour of the day (usually a western) so the rest of us dont get a chance to watch tv.
-i made a fool of myself last night, but i think thats why he likes me. lol
-sour milk isnt really... sour. its actually more sweet, which grossed me out even more.
-i hate how ppl think they know you but really dont have a clue. you think youre so smart.
- i like my new pens.
- it makes me sad that summer is just starting to get fun again, and school has to screw us over.
- it makes me sad that he forgets about me.
and that i still dont have my keane cd. lol i miss keane :'(
- im happy that jake misses me. i misses him.
- i hope it gets cold soon bc i have lots of winter clothes. they are so cute. yay for clothes.
- val sucks. she wasnt mean or anything last night, but i really prefer not to be in the presence. you know those ppl. ah well. at least it wasnt tara.
- im sad bc i forgot to get an eyelines sharpener thingy today.
- im very happy that my nails are growing out of control and my natural highlights are looking wicked.
- i love how im laughing my ass off about something as stupid as the thought of throwing shit (litterally shit) out of the 10th floor window in cramer.
i dont know if getting involved is the greatest idea... even if he is "crazy about me." ugh. i really like him but...ya know. i know kelli knows. this drives me nuts.
not liking someone does not mean youre jealous, by any means. i guess for some cases that could work...but its dumb to say it in most. it sounds like something i would have said when i was little. kind of like that saying, "dont hate me cuz im beautiful." it just sounds vain: "you dont like me cuz your jealous"
i dunno. its dumb.
i dont like some ppl. there are about 4 ppl that i dont. but we all have those ppl. not everyone likes everyone, its just how the world turns. so are we all jealous of those particular ppl? i can honestly say i am not.
she always has something good to say about keith. always, even when shes mad at him and hes being an asshole. if she says something mean, she backs it up with something nice and how hes got potential.
i dont scream and swear at her but behind my back to other adults, its hard for her to bring up anythign nice about me.
is it bc i cant keep my room clean? well ive got a lot of stuff and its hard to keep a room the size of a closet clean, no matter how much shit you have. im sorry.
i havent decided when to start it, prolly after school is done, but im going to go on the coke and cigarette diet. id like to have some-waht good meals during school(especially breakfast) to keep me.. thinking, i guess is the word.
waht am i going to do after school!! aaahhh. i have no idea.
ill save that for another day.
ugh. cant wait to get my braces off.
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| eerie would be the word. |
[10 Aug 2005|12:51pm] |
ok so this is really weird. i wish they would find out what happened for sure to jennifer. its so strange just to think that someone can just be gone in a matter of 3 or 4 days, without any warning.
its hard to think that someone you see everyday wont be there anymore. i still think that i can go see Riley at the corner by the phone. jennifers death still really hasnt hit me.
i saw nate at the library, he works at bills too. he didnt even know yet. i wonder how jane is holding up.
it makes me stop and think... this could happen to anyone. why keep trying if youre only going to die tomorrow. it makes me worry that something like this could happen to my parents or my sister and i wouldnt be there for them. i miss them enough as it is.
lisa, or anyone, does anyone know if it was viral or bacterial? it makes me worry if it is bacterial.
did the massive heart attacks she had on sunday cause the brain damage?
i have so many questions.
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| 2005 is an unlucky number |
[09 Aug 2005|03:51pm] |
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i had something else to write about... but i cant remember it anymore. i cant really think of anything else anyways. i just got news that one of my co-workers, jenifer ames (sp??) died today. she just graduated this year so im sure some of you know her.
i dont know much about it so im sorry that i cannot be much help at this point. i know that she had a blood clot and it cut off blood flow to her brain. her brain swelled, and when they found her, there was no brain activity bc of the swelling. she died shortly after that.
a blood clot?? you do not think of things like this happening to ppl our age. ppl that we work with. our friends.
i really dont have much to say.
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| battle of the bands |
[06 Aug 2005|01:55pm] |
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so we went to grand haven last night for the battle of the bands. i wish ken could have gone with us bc erin and becca just wanted to leave. i guess they expected it to be more... poppy i guess. it defiantly wasnt. it was sad to leave early :-( ken would have at least stayed for more than 10 minutes. ah well.
so we came up with this new foundation:
FEED GRAND HAVEN
if you have any donations, send them ASAP. the girls there are starving and need your help.
lol, no lie though. when we thought we had seen the skinniest of skinny, this girl in short shorts and a pink shirt... there arent words for how skinny she was. all i can say is, she will be in my prayers.
while in GH, jim called me and says "hey, shelby wants you to come to my house tonight for a little get together" so im like ok ok, for a while. we go, play uchre and egyptian rat screw. it was an ok time. we left around... 12 ish.
there was this girl there, jackie. some of you prolly know her. ive see her everywhere. she hangs out with like, every guy in newaygo, fremont, and grant so... if you are thinking you know this jackie, im sure you do.
damn, this girl was seriously so annoying. she was drunk and just wouldnt shut up and all over everyone.
geebus.
so.. anyone going to fireworks tonight?
FYI: if you guys didnt know, and if you even care :P the first football game is on the 26th. woohoo, right.
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| finish the sentence thing. bc i have no life |
[05 Aug 2005|02:56pm] |
Finish the sentences...
1. I'm always... thinking
2. I love saying... epiglottis
3. I think flowers are... nice to receive
4. My favorite Beatles song is... oh crap... uhm... here comes the sun, but i love them all.
5. I was born... 3:01 pm, january 18, 1988
6. Sometimes I try too hard... and sometimes i dont.
7. I hate to say it but I’m not too keen on... fake people and black licorice
8. I work well on things... dealing with science or computers. or art.
9. I’m going to college to be... uh... not poor? im not sure for sure what im going to do, but its going to be medical. probably medical imagine or surgical.
10. I hate wearing... tight, itchy things. like itchy sweatpants that dont fit. lol, or a sweater. makes me cringe
11. I love to read books about... love or crimes
12. I say how I feel... too much. it pisses ppl off sometimes.
13. I’m addicted to... money, football, and subway
14. I drink too much... milk
15. Class is... usually boring, sometimes interesting, occasionally fun
16. My earliest memory is... living in hespo..? nope nope, texas. i remember playing in the dirt and my parents were freaking out bc they thought they heard a rattle snake.
17. The last place I went on vacation was... chicago i guess. does that count?
18. I think living far away from... my family sucks ass.
18. Right now, I should be calling... my mom. i miss her.
19. The last candle I lit was... oh geez. i have no clue.
20. Kids can be... cute, annoying, loud, sleepy, fun
21. I think Napster Is... overrated and done with. get over it.
22. The best M&Ms are... peanut mnms :D
23. If I could go anywhere it would be... london or australia
24. I despise it when... people are fake, annoying, and/or attentions whores
25. I love to shop at... pacsun, buckle and FOREVER 21 :D
26. Malls are a really fun place to... shop? i dont really do anything else there...
27. I thought it was hilarious when... becca and i got from daft to the pope. lol, long story.
28. I love my friends even though they... i cant say anything bad about them. there really isnt anything to say.
29. A kick ass place to have a party would be... mexico.
30. I think it’s all about... love
31. I love the TV show... family guy, nip tuck, desperate housewives
32. Spinning makes me... nauseous
33. I never get enough time to spend with... my family
34. One of the nicest things someone has ever done for me is... i have no idea. we need more radios. ive had some ppl do some nice things for me but only to turn around and stab me in the back or break my heart.
35. When no one’s around, I really like to... dance naked or scream. depends on how im feeling but lately its the scream.
36. My favorite computer font is... i really dont care.
37. My all time favorite movie is... donnie darko and x-men
38. If I had a million dollars... id quit my job.
39. People refer to me as... mais, maisie, mdawg, mizzle dizzle, mizzle mizzle dizzle. lol that just makes me laugh.
40. I want to kill... naw.
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| hurry up |
[30 Jul 2005|02:51pm] |
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omg i hate it when i push on the rich text thing and then it deletes everything that i have written. grr
so i sitting here over at whitneys, waiting for becca, cuz i dont really have much of a life.
note to self: hanging with a freshman and an army man, oh and the freshmans sister + them being tipsy... well no smashed, is no longer permitted. ever again.
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